As Canadian Professor Avril Lavigne-Stein Once Said...

There is not one thing in this entire world that is easy. Because even if it is right now, the effects of those decisions will become more and more complicated with every step.

Make sense? Probably not. And that's where I stand.

I'm scared to move forward in everything...faith, relationships, friendships, LIFE in general... because with every step things get more complicated. With every step you take you get further away from that honeymoon stage of enjoying these things and step closer to your own demise and it's like I have no vision and I can't see a point to it all.

You like someone. You don't tell them, you suffer. You do tell them, they either like you or don't. If they don't, you hurt like hell for a long time until you're strong enough to repeat the cycle. If they do like you, lucky you, you get a new man and then you get to say goodbye to everything you used to do because some say it's a blessing to be single.

You stay where you are in faith, you get bored and stop seeing a point. You keep seeking and the harder everything gets. The enemy attacks you like blood cells attack a virus. The people you love the most are manipulated to hurt you at the devils expense and then you develop a Messiah complex where you want to change the world and everything is your fault because you knew the truth and knew they needed the help.... all because you moved from your comfort zone.

But then there's me, who can't see one side of the argument without the other.

Of course bad things happen in life, but the only time lightning strikes twice is if you don't move from the spot you were hit in. 

I wish I knew how to rationalize a bit; take some chances like I tell everyone to. Maybe someday I'll be as confident and spontaneous on the inside as I am on the outside.

As there is a bright side to every situation... I'm happy I don't look like Kim Kardashian when I cry.

PS- Happy New Year!!!!! 2013 can bring it on.